addiction

ad·dic·tion n 1 : compulsive, habitual, or obessive psychological or physiological dependence on or need for something - a person, substance, activity, thought or feeling 2 : every person on this planet is addicted to something: drugs, alcohol, sex, television, food, video games, work, gambling, shopping, computers, pornography, war, money, negative thinking, etc. Even emotions can be addictive, such as the excitement of taking risks, the comfort found in the arms of a lover, the adrenaline rush from a high impact work-out, relief of stress that can come from creating art or listening to music. In some cases addictions can be positive, but most often addictions are destructive 3 : Addiction is a spirit that seeks out and exploits a weakness with the intention of gaining complete control 4 : to be addicted requires submission to the addictive influence. No thing can control us unless we freely submit our will to it 5 : Addiction is synonymous with being bound, to be captured and kept, controlled and dominated by an force outside of our selves 6 : I had several addictions: alcohol, marijuana, sex. Each addiction had a spirit all its own; excessive influence of one could easily win best in show of debauchery. When combined, their influence took bestial form, a dragon destined to fly only one course: hell's ghetto. Here, the poor have lost their spirit and are left to survive on soul alone. Slaves who think they are masters blindly believe they hold the reigns to the beast. In fact, the more frequent the ventures, the tighter the straps controlling nebbish natures. Constrict a warm-blooded creature long enough, it becomes numb. This is the worst part of addiction: to be so tightly bound, one no longer feels the bondage. I danced to songs I don't remember, with men who remained nameless. My steps were backwards, haphazard, like one crippled or maimed. One addiction fed off the other. The lizard of lust would drag me down dirt roads like James Byrd of Jasper. Always dismembered the morning after, the spirit of guilt led me to drink away my shame. The depressant would sink me so low, I'd smoke till I was so high I could barely see the next nameless face of escape. That's the lie of addiction: you think you are escaping life, and for a while it feels that way, but in truth life has escaped you, which is why so often people who are addicted often contemplate suicide, see DEPRESSION 7 : Being an addict is like being demon possessed. Not long after I was delivered from my addictions, I was reading the Word. "When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, 'I will return to the house I left.' When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first." (Matthew 12:43-45) This warning quickened my spirit. I determined that I must become a fiend for God.